Hello, Hi wow it's been about half a year since I last posted, I didn't mean to abandon blogging entirely but with my recent internships and university deadline it became something I just didn't have the time for, any days off I did have were usually spent under a duvet waiting for all the stress and mayhem to start again. 

Anyway I've now broken up for summer and I have realised I don't want to leave this abandoned, I'm working 4 days a week at the moment so it's going to be a slow process getting a regular run of posts but I want to try, speaking to people has made me realise that I'm lucky to have started off quite well on here so I don't want to just give that up, I'm slowely getting more emails and contacts and I really want to work on that because as silly as it sounds as I'm not doing much at the moment and a blog is like a little something that I have to show for myself.

Obviously I'm still going to write too much that no one will read, talk about everything that isn't relevant and swear so much that this blog should come with a age restriction but whatever that's why I liked blogging.  

Admittedly I didn't rush back in to blogging because I became really fucking bored and sick all of the carbon copy posts, and general monkey see monkey do attitude towards the "elite" bloggers, like who gives a shit how you store your make up, you put it in a fucking box and get over it , big deal and Primark hauls oh good lord there should be no such thing as a Primark Haul . I'm happy just staying the unpopular one in the corner and if you have any sort of posts you would want to see let me know because I plan on staying faceless and sticking to my old habbits content wise.

So speak soon and follow me on Bloglovin' I'm not sure if that Google reader business is still going down



1.Trench Coat  |  2.Silk T-Shirt  |  3. Knitted Jumper |  4. Cord Dungaree's  |  5. Clear Belt  |  6.Mini Skirt  |  7.Rucksack  |  8.Pointed Heels  |  9.Boyfriend Jean

Both all colours and no colours, I adore white and there are a ton of absolutely beautiful all white looks I've seen recently that I can't wait to copy in the summer. I saw ivania carpio of Love Aesthetic post a photograph on instagram of an article from Netherlands Glamour Magazine about the beauty of the colour white but I can't find it anywhere to read/quote on here like a smarty arse damn it.

Number one on my wish list for spring/summer is a trench coat! I think I've said this every summer and I'm still without one so this year I mean it. All saints have one that is perfect! (here) I've tried it on a thousand times but even with my staff discount it's way out of my price range, then I found this one on Topshops website, I'm gutted I haven't seen it in a store to try on but the colour and cut looks perfect, plus it looks like you get a whole lot more of coat for half the price of the Allsaints one. Some other bits from Allsaints are the Silk Biker tee and Boyfriend Jeans, I already have this T-shirt and the fact I've never had such a glorious fit plain t-shirt that I thought it would only be fair to share it, seriously plain t shirts of vests I usually just buy whatevers cheap (eg topshop two for £10) but they're usually a shit fit and look even worse after one wash, but I feel like I've now learnt/allsaints have taught me the importance of investing in essentials haha! There is a big difference between a good plain t-shirt and a bad one.
I was a bit cheeky adding the Lanvin belt as it's £500 and it can be on my wish list all I want I'm NEVER going to own it, but it's more of a bit of inspiration to find the perfect perspex belt or motivation to just make one myself.



Top | H&M (Similar Here)  Leather Trousers | H&M sale (Similar Here)  Studded Clutch | Topshop  Boots | Topshop
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First outfit post in a long time and it's a pretty boring one but this is what I wore on Valentines Day and  I've only just got round to having the time to edit the pictures.  I managed to find these leather look pants in the H&M for £5 and I've literally lived in them as they keep you insanely warm I can only imagine how glorious some real leather pants would be.  Admittedly I can barely fit in to them they're so small and I've put on about a stone since I bought them so I have to wear a very loose top with them to hide how much they cut into my hips haha, Completely forgot I even had this top from H&M's trend section so that was a perfect match.  I knew the weather was getting cold again but I popped out for some food bits a minute ago and didn't realise it was THAT cold, which means everyone's outfit posts are going to be more like "this is what I wore indoors under 4 layers of jumpers before I went outside'.  Literally can not understand girls who do their outfit photographs outside wearing no tights and a vest like 'What I wore today' ...



So I've been completely MIA for some time now and I thought it was about time I posted/came back with explanation.  I wouldn't go as far as "I'm so sorry I haven't posted blah blah blah " because frankly nobody probably noticed but for my own benefit and enjoyment I will definitely be back on track as of now so hi, hello again. The reason for not blogging in so long is I've been interning at TANK Magazine, the hours where pretty long and I usually didn't get home till around 8 so with that five days a week and working at Allsaints on the weekend I just haven't even had the time to think about blogging.

I've finished at TANK now, dues to my own illness/continuos face problems I had to cut it short by a week but I had an amazing time, everyone was so lovely and it was great experience that add on to my cv, I should now fingers crossed be working with a freelancer in the upcoming weeks so no rest for the wicked.

Anyway to fill in the blanks from the last few weeks the biggest thing was probably I've had all my hair cut off, never get a weave girls! seriously having mermaid locks was fun at the time but it absolutely killed my hair and now I look like Draco Malfoy, it's so short I could die but whatever I'm not going down the fake hair route again. Also whilst at TANK I was filmed for the Thats Hot for Because Magazine where they ask you about your "Style" and other random questions and then do a short video on your "look", so that was pretty awesome and despite the end of my internship I've wangled my way permanently on to their site ;), I won't post the link as it's horrendously embarrassing/awkward to watch but from that going well I got to run around Sommerset House for LFW and film other peoples looks for the same feature which was great fun.

My photo from Because Magazine 'That's Hot' 

I won't blab on anymore but yeyyyy I have missed blogging feels good to be home man, I haven't even had the time to read as many as I usually do so I'm looking forward to a good catch up getting back into the swing of outfit posts etc, Anyway hope everyone had a crazy good international women's day and Mothers day this weekend !  I've some how managed to gain a load of followers despite not being here so how nice of you, you might actually have something to ready from now on woo hoo


1 | Despite being an only child and growing up with just my mum, we are the complete polar opposite of each other, in literally every way, shape and form from personality, humour to taste, morals, beliefs, everything! if it wasn't for all the birth & baby photographs I'd be certain I am adopted.

2 | My Granddad took me in my pram to work one day along the embankment and walked past Paul McCartney who commented on what a cute baby I was. Now much older and wiser I think the man's a complete moron but still, it's pretty cool.

3 | I'm terrified of speaking on the phone, I don't know why but I just really really hate it ! I've been with my boyfriend three years and probably called him about 5 times and I never answer my phone unless I have to. I'm even more terrified of voicemails, if someones left me a voicemail it will take me weeks to pluck up the courage to listen to it, usually by then my inbox has built up to so many unheard messages that they eventually delete themselves thank god !..

4 | I've never eaten a Burger, I hate everything about them, the look, the smell, the fact the bun has seeds on it! everything disgusts me. When I was younger there was nothing more distressing for me than a McDonalds party...

5 | I drink so much Pepsi Max that I probably contribute to about 5% of the entire companies sales...I have about 2 bottles or more every single day and have done so for about the past three years.

6 | Along with pepsi max, smoking, eating a lot of sweets and acidic foods I somehow still have perfect teeth, although I reckon I won't have any enamel left for much longer if I carry on touch wood as this is probably the only thing I have going for me....

7 | I hate animals and people who fuss over their pets. Like I just can not begin to understand why anyone would to spend so much time, love and money on a pet!  they smell, they have to be constantly taken care of, fed, walked, they're noisy and eventually going to die on you which people then get realllyyyy upset over, like in my head if a cat dies, then get a new one they all do the same thing how can you get so physically attached to something so pointless. I know everyones fucking cat crazy so hate me if you will but I don't know maybe I am actually heartless...

8 | My dad used to be Tom Cruise's cigar merchant (and the Spice Girls).....

9 | I can put both my feet behind my head, I reckon I'd be the shit at Yoga...

10 | I hate sleep, I think it's a waste of time, there are so many better things to do in the night and I will happily survive a full day on the bare minimum needed. If I moan I'm tired it's usually because I've just had a hectic day, I don't think I am ever genuinely tired.  I'm also a total morning person, I'm always up around 7 or 8 and waking up anything later then 10 completely freaks me out.

11 | Growing up I've gone from being a completely heartless/emotionless bitch to a total hopeless romantic. This is something I never thought I would be capable of! I was always too proud to ever show any feelings towards anyone, I thought if you never give a fuck about them then you could never get hurt. As for now, I guess Love is everything it's cracked up to be...

12 | I've had depression for about 6 years, some say it's not genetic but it runs in my family like the plague.  It's something that I'm continually learning to deal with, I've given up seeking help because I found you can't force happiness on someone who doesn't think they deserve it, it's become something that's difficult to live with but impossible to live without. The only thing I struggle to cope with is when people around me just dismiss it, those who just can't understand why you're like the way you are and demand an explanation, Nothing makes you more conscious of how mad you are then when someone asks what's wrong with you and you can't give an answer, because there's never a reason, I just think wanting to die has always been in me.

13 | My hands are always freezing cold, even in the hottest of temperature's they're somehow still cold,  I can't even imagine what normal temperature hands would feel like.

14 | After a night out when I was 15 I woke up with a joker card in my purse, I have no idea if I put it there, if someone else did or if it was given to me? I definitely do not remember there being anyone with a pack of cards at any point in the night either so where it came from has always been a complete mystery to me but I kept it in my purse for years with no idea where it came from, In five years of having handbags and purses stolen, it's somehow never left me, it's now tacked to my bedroom and is my most charmed possession.

15 | I faceless blog for a reason, Last summer I ended up with two chemical burns the size of two pound coins on my face, 7 months later, the scars are still pretty prominent and I have a feeling they're going to be there for life, I have tried EVERY healing product under the sun, including a perscription only £90 pigmentation cream but nothing seems to be fading them. If I'm honest they've ruined my life, I do not care how shallow it comes across but the fact that I will never, ever have a day where I feel comfortable in my own skin is horrible, they're on my fucking face for everyone to see, they've made me more paranoid than ever, I have zero confidence, I cry every time I get ready for a night out because I know no matter how much effort I put in I will always look hideous,  I don't even know why James is still with me but I just know someone better will eventually come along seeing as 99.98% of girls don't have horrendous facial marks, like I can't even let him see me when I first wake up because I don't want him to look at me and see the monster he's going out with. I'm also on Roacctutane which is a hell of a drug, I literally don't know what to do with myself anymore, please kids, never take good skin for granted .

16 | My great Aunt is my ultimate idol in life. When she first moved to Canada and purchased her first flat, she also bought every apartment on the floor so that she cold choose her neighbours. When she died she had already organised her own funeral from start to finish and bought the grave spaces around her own so that so she will never be buried next to any strangers. I only aspire to be as great as she was.

17 | As well as being a Leo, I am also an essex girl, Swedish, the daughter of the worlds second worst tempered father, who himself is the son of the first. Therfore, it is woven into every part of me to be so naturally aggressive and ill tempered.

18 | I remember reading the very first thing James wrote about me after we first met, well at least I think it was about me but that night is when I knew I was with the wrong person and now three years later it's still the best decision I ever made..

19 | Despite my family being pretty poor, I am incredibly grateful for how well travelled I am, considering I'm only 20 I've been to some amazing places including all around Europe, South America across, North America, Canada, the Caribbean, Africa, India, Thailand, the Philippines, I've only never really been to Russia, China, Japan or Australia, but when I'm done with my degree before I settle in a job I hope to go travelling for a while, especially around India and Thailand.  

20 | I used to scream in my sleep, thank god that stopped. 



Othea Mini Dress | Allsaints  Manifest Boots | Allsaints

Finally had a chance to do another blog post, I thought I was on a role for a bit but that only lasted the two days. Anyway The sale's finally been banished from work and the new collection is all in meaning a perfect new outfit post opportunity.
Here, I'm wearing Allsaints Othea Mini Dress with the glorious Manifest Boots. The dress fits like a dream, It literally drapes on the body a different time every time and it's so nice being able to wear something that isn't too dressy or too casual to go out straight after in. The boots are the actual love of my lifes, they kill me feet, I can't walk up the stairs and my toes are bleed in them and out of all the sensible boots there are to choose from I had to get them but it's worth it they're glorious.

Also irrelevantly I got the internship at TANK magazine!, I can not wait to start, I know I'm going to assisting with shoots for TANK, Because and O, helping their stylist and bits around the office, but my internship starts literally in sync with fashion week so I'm crossing all my fingers and toes that there's an opportunity in there somewhere to see some shows but who knows, we'll have to see. My blog might just suddenly get a whole lot more interesting than what crap I want to buy but cant afford and what I'm wearing days I actually bother to get dressed....


January Wishlist

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A pretty minimal wish list, really want some simple bits for when I start work i.e going back to my "dressing more like an adult" plan. The coat's such a nice lovely light colour, would love something like this as all my coats are just 4 times the size of me and not particularly nice.  I don't understand how people still dress so well in this weather I literally walk out the house just wearing all my clothes at once. I've been looking at some fedora style hats to replace the wool beanie that's been superglued to my head all winter, I can't imagine they'll suit me at all but at least I can swan about and pretend to be Millie Mackintosh or something. The shoes I've tried on about a hunded times and they're perfect but I have no money whatsoever at the moment so I can just dream on, the same goes for the bag, it's so gorgeous.